Hey!! So, I wanted to take a moment and thank my first two donors! The money they donated will go to designing a logo and getting some stickers made to spread the word about my site! Thank you both so much! For me, it takes the stress off a bit so I can function much better and also showed me that people are willing to give even when I can’t articulate myself that well, and that gave me hope. I needed some hope. My motto is “can’t love or live without taking a risk” and sometimes that risk can’t make you lose your mind a bit.. So, thank you, thank you, thank you. It gives me a little bit of confidence and faith to keep moving forward. Praise God!
If you are new to my page, here is the link to my GoFundMe if you would like to check out why I’m raising money in this season. Please check it out and donate to the cause if you feel moved. Thanks!
I wanted to make an amendment to the part about Ritalin, though. Every breakthrough tends to be amazing at first, then there’s comes an adjustment/maintence phase. Personally, I find that I am affected by so many factors on a very intense level. I even feel the moon cycles and the weather. I believe we all feel that to some extent, but some or more sensitive or aware than others. It’s kind of like how some people can throw a baseball better than others. We’re all different in gifts and make-up, but equal in worth and dignity. So, Ritalin helped me but I’m still learning how much and when to take it. I went full in at first and it lost it potency pretty quickly. But I tried it again last night after letting it drain out of my system a bit and it worked pretty well. The other parts of being able to function are not too much screen time, exercise, organic eating, non-organic eating, contemplative (or meditiative) prayer, being outside, being inside, playing music, writing, journaling, processing, talking to friends, being with people, solitude, silence, stillness, sleeping well, working late when it’s time to, and taking other medications.
So, as it all is part of the process and ever changing, (like the weather, especially on the Front Range) writing about it all can be difficult to express. It’s hard to talk about one topic without bringing up the rest because as much as we like to classify things, everything is actually interacting with each other and changing all the time, including while I’m writing this. It’s almost like we need a new (or remember an old) language to learn how to communicate this. This is bold statement that I haven’t quite worked out, but I believe I may have a Way I’ve come to see the world that might be a step towards understaning each other better, understanding God better, and communicating life as it happens in the evolution of consciousness we are continually in.
We’ll see where this goes. Stay tuned.